I try not to ever see myself as a ''victim.'' I don't really like that term, unless it's truly accurate. But, lately, I feel like the odd girl out, as though it's hard to really fit in, somewhere. What I mean, is I left religion about five years ago, and back then, I lost a few Christian friends. I felt like the odd girl out. Then, I eventually claimed that I was an atheist, and felt a sense of belonging, until...I gravitated towards faith again, a few years ago. Then, I was the odd girl out among my atheist friends. They never really shunned me, but they definitely made me feel like I wasn't entirely a part of them. We've moved past that now, i love my friends, but I know that they don't understand why I'm spiritual, again. It's not even worth explaining, because if you are an atheist, you might not get it. If you are spiritual, you might not get why I strayed from belief in the first place. Again, that odd girl out feeling returns.
Now, upon finding out that I have a middle eastern heritage, my dad's weird secret that he kept from me until a few weeks ago, I find myself feeling that strange left out feeling. He doesn't want to be a part of exploring our middle eastern side, maybe because he associates the middle east with endless religious and political conflict. He has shared bits and pieces of his views, and left the conversation with ''you're on your own with this.'' Odd girl out...again.
I wonder if anyone can identify with feeling like the odd one out with family or friends...maybe at your place of work? Most days, it doesn't bother me, but after this thing with my dad, it does.
Now, upon finding out that I have a middle eastern heritage, my dad's weird secret that he kept from me until a few weeks ago, I find myself feeling that strange left out feeling. He doesn't want to be a part of exploring our middle eastern side, maybe because he associates the middle east with endless religious and political conflict. He has shared bits and pieces of his views, and left the conversation with ''you're on your own with this.'' Odd girl out...again.
I wonder if anyone can identify with feeling like the odd one out with family or friends...maybe at your place of work? Most days, it doesn't bother me, but after this thing with my dad, it does.